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the time is nigh

The time is nigh to stir the fire and light the heart The time is nigh  to bring the babe and wash Him clean  The time is nigh  to thank the trees  and here their clapping The time is nigh to come home  and bring thyself The time is nigh  to wash thy feet and see the holy ground  The time is nigh  to bring the gold  and cleans thy soul The time is nigh  to be whole and without breaks  The time is nigh  to go without and to be given all

For My Brother

There are somethings that are harder to write than others. For some there is no end to the words that can be used to describe it. And there are some that are all feelings and colours that come together to make up a vague portrait. I’ll do my best to make sense because this one of those hard times.   There is a strange relief that comes when “the thing” finally happens. When the change you saw coming a mile away finally comes. Because really you saw it coming from across the ocean and it took its sweet time arriving. My brother left for school a country away. It’s not the first time and it probably won’t be the last, somehow it never really gets any easier. He leaves and then I leave it’s our pattern. Maybe it’s because he’s just a little bit older and maybe it’s because we’re just a little bit the same. It wasn’t the moment we hugged goodbye that got me, it wasn’t the moment he got in the car, it wasn’t even the moment I waved, it was the finality that gripped me as I watch h...

The mountains

  There was a time when all I could draw were mountains. They speak to me and they take me out at the knees. They’re profound and prophetic and strike somewhere deeper than deep. I would draw these mountains as great heaving peaks that cut into the sky without mercy, sharp and unforgiving. And maybe I’ve lost my edge, become soft and full of weeping, but all I see are the mountains rolling. Rolling and running and so so full of unrelenting peace. Steadfast and certain.   The sharp, extreme, harsh lines of my rage full soul of childhood are no more. They’ve softened, become more dull and easier to stomach. It sounds so sad put that way but the world has lost its great intrusive intensity. And it has become all soft lines and calm yellow light. What once I thought was a cactus waiting to prick me and draw blood, is really a tree just patiently awaiting my acknowledgement. It’s really quite simple.  I once thought life was the horrible monster waiting around the corner, w...

family vacation

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Theres a certain flavour of grace in a family vacation. I’m blessed to have a loving, and caring family who’s conviction is love.   It means that when we’re on vacation I’m able to simply be. In the messiest and most refreshing way. I’m given the time to fall back together. After the weight of the world has taken its toll, I’m given a small and short reprieve. It’s all I need. Just a bit of time to come back to myself and brace myself for the continuation of burdens borne.  But for a short time I have time. I’m held and steered in the way of carful waters, I’m taken care of. I’ve been given the gift of a time where someone else takes the weight to keep me going. Burdens are to be borne. They are meant to be carried and held and become a part of the deal.  It’s a grace to let go and be taken care of. It does not come easy to me, that’s why it takes grace. I’m the buckle down, tighten up, and get it done on your own type of person. It gets lonely. And there are times w...