Time and Light Switches

In my twenties Easter has been a holiday that has passed me by without incident, thought, or really much care. This year is no different really, only thought I’ve given it is that I haven’t thought of it. It snuck up on me and thats all I’ve really noticed. It wasn’t, hasn’t, always been like this.   When I was young it was a holiday celebrated with community and fun. From egg hunts to potlucks, yes the Easters of my childhood were mild but memorable. Now as much of my family is made up of adults and ones close to it Easter seems to have taken on a certain sombreness, or maybe thats just me. I can only imagine that when I have a family of my own it will take on a mild joy once more, or maybe finding community will skew my view. Either way Easter feels odd to me.  To add to my continued view of the holiday, events outside of and not inconsequence of said holiday seem to happen around it’s date. A number of years ago I found myself in a country that I never thought I’d end up...

Moving is hard. Moving is hard when you’ve never moved, moving is hard when you’ve moved before. Moving is hard when you’re 8 years old, moving is hard when you’re 23 years young.  Moving is hard when you have trauma, moving is hard when you’re perfectly healthy.  Moving is hard when you know where you’re going, moving is hard when you have no idea. Moving is hard when you have something to lose, moving is hard when you feel you have nothing.  Moving is hard when you’ve had 15 different homes, moving is hard when you’ve only had one. Moving is hard when you’re in control, moving is hard when you’re out of it. Moving is hard when this is familiar  moving is hard when this is all you know.  Moving is hard. 

Allow me to introduce myself once again, my name is Savana-Raine, I am the writer and voice of Time and Light Switches. I’ve been posting to this blog since 2020, a strange year we can all agree, and I didn’t know exactly what I was doing when I started but I know where I’d like to go.   Time and Light Switches started simply as a way and sort of commitment to share my writing with more than just my friends and family. I stared posting the things I was writing, the poems and stories and just all around thinkings I had about the life I was living. Sometimes that meant I was talking about my art and sometimes that meant talking about my emotions the only way I knew how to. One can only express and exclaim their emotions so many times before the need to simply sit with them arises.  Then the creative process took over. I suppose that was about two years ago now, that I put a heavy emphasis on talking about my creative process rather than my feelings. I’ve swung back into a ba...

What is your greatest loss? I have lost more than I will ever be able to account for.  I was robbed blind, gone completely bankrupt, checks all bounced.  What have you gained? Love. Peace.  Is that all? It’s all I need. Really? Sometimes. Sometimes it isn’t quite enough, sometimes all I can do  is scream about all that is owed to me. All that may never return.  That must hurt. More than I’ll ever have words for. Would you take it back? No. Never in a million years. Why not? Because I have peace. And wouldn’t trade that for all the world. Even if some days it’s not an easy decision.  Is it worth it? Yes. 

It’s incredible what rest and joy will do for the human spirit. I’ll be honest self discipline has taken a bit of a hit recently. It's just been a bit more difficult for reasons that aren’t totally within my own control. I edited one whole paragraph yesterday and that was it. It’t not the books fault, this is all me this time. But I’m okay with it because I took a nap yesterday.   See it’s important to listen to your body and take care of anything that’s lacking. Well in this case I haven’t been sleeping well, been going on for weeks if I’m being transparent, but I finally listened to me body cues and needs and took a nap for once. Fun fact about me, I only really nap when I’m under the weather or dealing with a time change. So taking naps aren’t my normal, but I’m all the better for it today. It helped a little yesterday but a ton today.  So here’s my big revelation for the week, take care of present you to take care of future you. Small steps still add up along the ...