to contiuning

It’s funny how different life can be. How one day seems to be headed in one trajectory and then next moment everything changes. 


I don’t often have plans for my life, more like guiding dreams, and every time I think I have it figured out, a new path crops up. It is the strangest thing. 


Every plan I’ve ever had for my life has at one point or in some capacity been changed, it never quite works out the way I picture. 


I had a plan, or at least a thought of one, and now I’m not so sure. The writing completely uninterrupted, but just the how. 


Even if it’s just this flash of maybe, it has already undone me in a beautiful manor. I will not leave this process unchanged, regardless of outcome. 


It truly is baffling how every now and again I think myself sorted, and then the One Who Created me will send a guiding hand to direct my vision ever so slightly, or largely.  


Having completed what I have, has me all strange. It’s uncomfortable, and stretching, but this is the place of growth, whether I wanted it or not. 


Being ill, and knocked out at the knees, always sends me in strange directions. I’m surly on the mend, only a bit slow and wavering. My thoughts not all my own. 


Even if this is all one great maybe, I will have been better for it, because it was the kick in the pants I’ve needed, to stop wavering, and take life by the reins once again. 


Oh what a marvellous and grand thing, full of wonder and spender, and no small amount of holding my own hands. 


To life’s twists and turns, may we take them softly and without faltering. 

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