Run with Reckless Abandon

Being seen is a sacrifice. Being heard is a risk. There is no safety to be found in either of these. But silence suffocates. It suffocates slowly and if left alone long enough is forgotten.

To run with reckless abandon towards yourself is more than a risk. It’s terrifying and it unsettles the people who think they know you most. It shakes up their normal because they can’t help but think, “how dare you kill the person we thought you were!” 


But you have more than the right to be you and the youest you you can be. It is in the very DNA, the very essence of those who have been created. You are meant to be you. No one else can be you nor should you be anyone else. 


Being your trustiest you unapologetically is world shaking scary but it is where true freedom is found. If being you means people leave you, they shouldn’t have been there in the first place. It’s a hard truth, but truth nonetheless. 


Choosing authenticity over fitting in is not the road most traveled. It is the road most preached and most ignored. It is not the easy choice and has few immediate impacts. But it is oh so very worth it. It is worth the loss of people and the loss of all that is comfortable. 


Being seen is worth the work it takes. Being heard is worth the risk. It’s all worth it because at the end of the day getting to live your life is a gift. One we all ought to take more seriously. The gift that life it self truly is. So live it true. 

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