Thank You

Thank you. 

Thank you to anyone who has ever read this blog. Yes even you in the back who read one sentence and said “not for me.” I’d like to share the story of how we’ve found ourselves here this 40th week in a row. 


This journey of embracing my creativity and making an effort to share it has been liberating. I never thought I would be sitting where I am today. It is crazy to think that just a few short years earlier I wanted nothing to do with sharing my art. Time really does make way for great change. 


One day sitting in this same room I sit now, I decide I had had enough. I was fed up with feeling voiceless. I made a choice. I though to myself we’ll just try this new thing out and see what happens. I didn’t think it would become my stability, my sense of purpose. My drive. 


That was March and this is December and I don’t think I’ll ever be the same. I am forever changed be this experiment of mine.


Now this is staring to sound like a goodbye and it is far from that. It is a “Hello!” I can’t wait to continue this adventure see all the place we’ll go. 


Thank you for letting me share my whole story with you. Not just the happy exciting parts, but the sad and broken parts as well. It’s truly a gift and one I wasn’t expecting. 


If I could only ever say one last thing it would be, that this time, this space, this journey, this life, it is a gift. 


This blog and all it has been for me and all it has hopefully done for you is not something I was ever expecting to do with my life. It’s truly been a gift and privilege to share my story. 


I am more than excited to see and do all the more that is in store. 


Thank you think you thank you, forty times I say, thank you. 

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