i see you

One of my biggest things as an artist is self discipline. Beyond my normal support system of friends and family I don’t really have anyone telling me to get up and paint. There is no external force pushing me towards my art, if anything it pulls me away. What I’m saying is, to be an artist one must foster incredible amount of self discipline. I’m not in school, haven’t been for years, and the only schedule I have is one I enforce myself. Learning to be the master of my own life and will is part of growing up, but it isn’t something that is easily taught, or learned. 


Now to give credit where credit is due, I have amazing friends and family who are not shy to say they believe in me and celebrate me well. But there isn’t anyone who sits with me every day telling to me get up and get going, that job, the one of motivating and discipline is on me. And that’s part of how its supposed to be. My life is mine to live and I have to be responsible to make things happen. 


I could take that as a punishment, or I can take it as a blessing. That I have free reign to live my life as I see fit. And I see fit to be an artist and make my way through this life, even when the road is long and full of twists and turns. I chose to persevere and continue to cultivate self discipline. 


Sometimes I think I took the easy road out, to make my life out of the things that I love, that some how it was cheating to live life happily and fully. But then I remember. Remember all the blood, sweat and tears I have given to making this life for myself, and I think to myself it’s not that it’s easy, it’s that its right. And it’s worth it. 


So to all the artists, to the creators, to the makers and mountains shakers, I see you. I see all you have given and sacrificed, and to you I say- keep going. Keep practicing, keep running after the dream, keep doing what you have to do. Because when you see a blank space and design to fill it with beauty you are leaving the world a better place than you found it, and I can think of no higher calling. 

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