The Thoughts In The Way

Sometimes I know what I’m talking about, and sometimes I have to write the thought out of my way. I’ll have this sentence or thought that is in the way of what I’m trying to write about. Today the extra thinking slipped though my fingers like sand on a windy day, it was there and it was brief and then I could feel it leave me behind. 


I had read this piece of writers advise, it was talking about how when you come back from a break you have to work though the rust. There will be these not as good sentences or paragraphs, like in a bottle of raw milk you have to scrape off the cream at the top to get to the milk. Which is to say that those first few tries will have something to them but you have to work with them. Practice begets fluidity. 


I find no fault with this advise, only that when I read it it sounded like a threat. It wasn’t of course, I just wanted the hope not the realism. 


I think its 50/50, half the time I know when I sit down what I’m gonna write about and how I’m going to start. And the other half I just start bleeding words and hope the path finds me before I run off the cliff. Often times when I’m trying to write the thoughts out of my way I will hit a wall, where there is no more to say and it’s abrupt. Sometimes the thought in my way is just a little too real, a little to personal, and I can’t bring myself to give it away. But sometimes it’s just nonsense I can’t help but wonder about and can’t help but be struck on. Like, I’d let you go if it would stanch the bleeding. But I’m not ever sure what I’m saying. 


I think there a little poet sitting in my head hoping I’ll let him out one day, let him out to terrorize us all with his terribly morose and hypocritical feelings. The little poet is particularly distracting today. 


The advise I could give away for free today is don’t be afraid to write badly and with no direction. Write the silly little limerick and stick it on your fridge. Write the first page to an epic adventure and realize the main character would really rather take a nap. Sometimes you just have to start anywhere, even when it gets you nowhere but a little bit warmer. 


Happy creating and much blessings! See you next week! 

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