Rest On Purpose pt2

So it’s been a week, a week since I wrote anything. I said I was going to take a few days off, 4 or 5, now it’s been 7. Taking a break, for me anyways, can be a bit of a trap. Because now coming back to the land of sentences and paragraphs is daunting. However there are positives that have come out of this little vacation. I managed to get some more work done on a painting, which is taking me a very long times to get through, and I now feel happy about starting back in on my book, probably come Monday. 


My heart has felt rested enough to be able to paint again, no anxiety no stress, just brush and canvas. I’ve noticed that I can be a bit all or nothing, I’ll finish a painting in one sitting, or it will take me months. This one is taking my months, and when I eventually finish it I’ll tell you the story, but until then it's just for me. 


I’m apprehensively excited to get back into the book. I’ve accepted that it will take near miracle to meet my self imposed deadline and so I’m moving the goal post. I was aiming for finishing mid June before I take off for a friends wedding, but its looking like the run up for that is too full to expect the kind of concentration that it take me to draft a story. So the new deadline, is loose of now and is simply sometime this summer. When I get back and can get back in I’ll set a better deadline, when I can know what is realistic. All that said, I am going to continue working away at it as much as I can till I have to leave. 


The trap is that now I quite like doing nothing, just being, which is fine but I have to exercise boatloads of self discipline and stewardship. It can be a fight to get myself to take a break, and then I drag my feet to get back to it, I’m stubborn like that. 


I am happy to report that taking the extra long weekend to rest my brain on purpose has helped great deal. It doesn’t feel like desolate wasteland anymore, definitely louder than it has been lately. I hesitate to go back to writing because I don’t want to be that mentally tired again, trying to avoid a burnout. The rest did wonders and now I gotta find a reasonable schedule to stick to. 


Once again the broken record, it’s about balance and a sustainable livable life. 


That’s all for this week, with the rest its been a quieter time so i’ve got less to say, but next week, next week I’ve got a dozy for you. Creative Constipation. So you’ve got that to look forward to. 


Thanks for reading! :)

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