allowing creativity to dance

Hair stuck in my lip balm,

feels like living.


Catching falling leaves,

and jumping in snow drifts. 



Allowing my creativity to leak into my everyday life, scraps of poetry in my journal, and doodles in my margins, dancing in the shower, and singing in the kitchen. Its realizing creativity can be found everywhere and anywhere you’re willing to look for it. 


I tend to think creativity is reserved for my art studio, not realizing I was stifling my own process. So I’m trying to find it in all the ‘dandelion growing through the cracks’ of life. Trying to write down every fleeting thought and idea, cause I’m forgetful. 


I suppose right now its not about making ‘good’ art, or even pursuing excellence, I think for me right now its about practice. About simply excising creativity, I’ll make it pay rent another day, for now I’ll just build the foundations. 


So editing is a slow and tedious process that leaves very little to talk about, its all about sentence structure and grammar stuff. Really I understand why there was little advice kicking around to be found about editing, because you just have to do it to understand it. I’m sure you’re as sick of hearing about how there’s not must to say about editing as I am of saying it, so I’ll stop here. 


There’s this funny thing I’ve discovered about my writing process for this here blog; when I’m not living a lot of life I run out of things to write about, when I’m living a lot of life I run out of things to write about as well. Its the silliest of things I’ve noticed. It’s anybody’s guess on which it is lately, and isn’t that a poem in-and-of-itself, that I can’t tell if I’m living too much life, or not enough. 


What I’m saying is that life and the creative process are always interconnecting and colliding, and sometimes it is in our best interest to simply let the chaos be. Let it be a cooked spaghetti mess of creative outbursts and half finished thoughts. Its okay. Finish the projects you start if you can, but don’t stay places that make you angry with your art. Being angry with the reflection that comes out of you when you create isn’t going help, so be at peace and let it go. There’ll always be time to come back and make it look like you knew what your were doing all along. Just enjoy the ride, because if you can’t enjoy the process you won’t get very far. 

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