Time and Light Switches

  It's one of those days. Where gravity feels a little heavier, where emotions sit a little too close to the surface. Its felt difficult today. The air’s a little thicker, the motivation a little harder to come by. But it will take much more than this to stop me. I still moved my body with the purpose of health in mind. I’m still siting down to write this post. Still drinking water. I’m still doing what is healthy, what is meant to be my support system. I’m slowly coming to the realization that I need a more concrete plan for hard days. Not just hoping they won’t show up. No, I need to become prepared, because this life can be hard and its important to treat yourself with kindness.   All that said I did finally jump back into editing this week. Its going well so far. I was sort of concerned when I was working on draft 2 that I wouldn’t find anything to do, or fix, or change when I came back to make draft 3. Well I’ll tell you what, that was indeed a very silly concern. ...

  The knitting still isn’t cutting it. I’m still slowly becoming more and more in need of a creative outlet. I’ve always needed one, my entire life, and sometimes I’m better at doing something about it than others. But I’ve been dreaming. Both at night and in my waking hours.   They’re nothing special or new, but they feel tangible. Like I may just actually get to live out some of my most precious dreams.  The cliff is steep, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Because I like to take large leaps, instead of bite sized pieces.  I’m not one for half measures, I can be a little too all or nothing.  But I’ll start editing again next week. I’ve had more than a long enough break and I can’t wait to get back to it. I’ve gotten a little bit of feedback and I’ll take it all the way to the bank, so-to-speak.  Hoping this round of editing will feel a little more natural than the first. Writing and editing are entirely different beasts, which I wasn’t ...

My head is empty these days. I’d like to say its because something profound is happening but really its just the continuing. The continuing of life and its daily routines, the quiet normal-ness of doing the same thing day after day.   I often long for a simple life, a life lead quietly and without grand intensity. Well I might be a bit of a liar. Just a teeny-tiny one, because I really do desire after peace and little else, but I do so love adventure and the occasional challenge.  I’ve got a lot of thoughts and nowhere to put them. So I guess saying my head is empty isn’t all that honest. But I’m not actively creating anything so my brain is getting a little silly I guess. I suppose the nightly knitting isn’t quite cutting it anymore.  The waiting periods in life have the opportunity to produce the sweetest victory, or the most bitter defeat. I’d like to think I’m about to enter into victory unparalleled. But sometimes when you come upon the end of the journey, can ...

Well here 2024 is and we’re off to an interesting start.   I had been struggling with the keyboard on my laptop so I got myself a bluetooth one in hopes of persevering the life of my computer. So that’s a bit of change. Getting used to feel of the different keys. Honestly to be a bit of a sap, it feels like a childhood dream come true, it feels similar to a typewriter and I always wanted a typewriter as a kid. So you could say dreams come true in the unlikeliest of ways.   To be a little vague and a little on the noes, I’ve got boxes to pack, so my break between draft 2 and 3 will be a bit longer than I wanted. But in a few short weeks I’ll be set and ready to dive into draft 3 with a bit of feedback as well as a few new tools in my arsenal.  But speaking of writing, I finished editing right before Christmas and didn’t get the chance to tell you all about it, so here goes. Finishing draft 2 didn’t feel quite as exciting as draft 1. Could have just been because the ...