shining

I got back into the grind of writing my book late last week, Thursday night to be specific. I had planned on starting back up on the Friday, or just straight up waiting for the start of the week to jump back in. But I was too excited when I thought about it, so I got back to it a little early. 

I remember having resigned myself to staring again later, but on Thursday evening I looked over at my desk, my notes for the book staring back at me. After that it was all over, I could’t help myself. I was just too tempting. 

It felt like coming home. Getting back into the story felt like home. A feeling I’ve always been chasing. It made me nervous after I realized it. I didn’t want that feeling to end, didn’t want to finish writing because then I’d have to do all the other parts of publishing a book. The parts I’ve been halfway avoiding for awhile now. 

Having hit the climax before the climax of the book, where my two main characters finally meet and talk was positively exhilarating. It’s become a bit complicated and at times confusing to make sure the things they say make sense from both perspectives and voices when writing in either one respectively. But I had a couple good, delightful, moments of reading back my written dialogue to myself and laughing saying, “yeah they would say that wouldn’t they.” 

This has been one the most challenging projects I have ever endeavoured to take on. It’s had moments that had me stomping around in a huff because of some problem I struggled to think my way out of. But it has also felt like the most rewarding process, the challenge making the victory, not matter how small, just that much sweeter. 

I still think this first draft is going to end up being far too long, but that just means I’ll have less to write write on the editing side of things. A polar opposite from my first novel. Still, it isn’t able to dull my exuberant excitement to share this story once it’s polished to shinning. Not perfection because that is simply a ridiculous goal, but shining is absolutely attainable. So that’s what I’m aiming for. Shining. 

Another wonderful development is an extremely satisfactory working title. I can’t share it with you just yet, because I could very well see it becoming the final title. For some perspective, I am not even completely sold on my title for my first novel and its been what it is for almost a year now. So titles and me do not always get along but this book is perhaps playing nice with me after all this time. Blessing do sometimes flow from persistence. 

It is almost silly how much I love this story and its characters. I can imagine I’ll be beside myself when I finally finish, but until then I’ll get back to it.